In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait expectantly. –Ps. 5:3
I grew up in a Christian movement that was all about acts of faith and miracles and believing that even the dead could be raised to life again. One thing we heard about alot was the time when Jesus told the Disciples, “You’ll do even greater things than Me.” And the funny thing is that we were all crazy enough to believe it. We were crazy enough to believe that someone could lay hands on a sick person, pray a prayer, believe by faith, and the person could be healed. We were crazy enough to believe Jesus when he said, “You can move a mountain (a seemingly insurmountable obstacle) with faith the size of a mustard seed.” I grew up this way as a little boy and remained in this type of church until I was about 21.
And then what happened?
When did I become jaded? When did I stop believing in miracles and start listening to practical, “real life” stuff? When did I accept the belief that God loves me unconditionally, but all that miracle stuff was really probably just during the time he actually walked the earth?
I want to go back. I want to go back to that time of deep faith and trust that if we ask anything by faith, trusting in God, that it will happen, according to His will.
Like my Momma, I want my mantra to become “Great Expectations”.
Just like my son, Ben Thomas, expects good things from me, I want to expect good things from my Father. “BT” is never afraid to ask me for what he wants:
- “Mickey Mouse Clubhouse!”
- “Dada, want milk!”
- “Go downstairs?”
- “Dada, hold you!”
- “Dada, I want pretzel.”
I am absolutely crazy about my son. He’s the light of my life. When his little feet come running to greet me at the door and he is SCREAMING “Dada!!!!”, nothing that has happened earlier in the day matters. Nothing. Good or bad. I have tunnel vision and all I see is my beautiful boy. My little boy was created from the love my wife and I have for one another, so he was birthed from love.
If I, a complete and total sinner, less-than-perfect, totally flawed, can love my son so much that I will do everything within my power to give him what he desires, how much more will a perfect, holy, loving God seek to meet our desires?
- When I ask God to heal my RA, I am going to expect that my Father wants to make that happen and that He WILL.
- When I ask God to give me wisdom and provision in my finances, I am going to expect that my Father WILL make that happen because He wants the best for me.
It’s not demanding. It is asking, already knowing that my Father has my best interest at heart. Why wouldn’t He want to give me the desires of my heart, if I am seeking Him with all my heart?
“Don’t bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn’t a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we’re in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn’t think of such a thing. You’re at least decent to your own children. So don’t you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?” Matt. 7:8-10
So I pray:
Almighty and Holy God, You are the Creator of my faith and the One who will see it through to completion. You have the whole World in Your hands and You hold every moment of mine in your heart. There is nothing seen or unseen that gets past You and there is no desire of my heart that You are unfamiliar with. Your Word asks me to come before your throne with confidence, asking directly for what I need. You have instructed me not to play games with you and You have promised in Your Word that You aren’t into trickery or trying to fool me. I believe that You are a good God and a wonderful Father and I know that You love me beyond my comprehension. Forgive my lack of faith and please increase the little faith that I do have. I trust in You with all my heart. Thank You for meeting my needs. I love you. Amen.